Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Taking a step back..and Not tripping

So here I am. I find myself, thanks to the inquiries of one of my best friends, sitting in front of the computer for the first time in awhile. I realized that I hadn't written in some time, and then disturbingly, I realized that it's because it hasn't occurred to me to do.


I love writing. I like to think that I am at least decent at it. Why have I completely forgotten about it? Could this have anything to do with the fact that I've also completely abandoned my legal/disability 'goings on' (which I really must update you on)? How about the fact that I've felt an increased desire to spend money lately? Not that I've spent out of control or anything, and it's not like we have anything to spend really, but still. How about that my confidence has taken a little upturn in the past couple of weeks again?

Could these be signs of hypomania/mania building? Or maybe just an odd coupling of things happening? Does this have anything to do with the release of stress and renewed sense of freedom thanks to getting another vehicle again? Maybe just a natural mood elevation coming through thanks to a complete adjustment to meds? If this is hypomania/mania, it's going to mean a med tweak which I'm NOT excited about. I just got settled on what I'm on.

So here I am. In front of my little green laptop, trying to take a step back to survey the situation without tripping over myself or any of the crap I've left abandoned in my wake.

I'm going to stay mindful over the next few days and weeks and see how things progress.
I'm also going to start writing out an update for you on the disability debacle that is now turning into a potential legal fiasco.

There you have my update. A whole bunch of ".........wha..???"